I’m tired of getting hurt by you. Just when I thought I was over you, you came back into my life and changed that. It started out as a simple run we were on in the rain. Running in the rain is my favorite thing to do and you know that. It brings back memories of us. And now, thanks to you I have another to add. A memory of you telling me what I’ve wanted to hear for so long…
As just like the stupid girl I am, I beloved you. I believed you when you said you felt the same way about me.
But now, now it seems like you’ve already moved on. Did you even feel the same way? Or were you just fucking with me?
I don’t know and I honestly don’t know if I even care. But one thing I do know is I’m done.
I’m don’t being hurt by you. I fell for you harder than anyone else. And it took me a shit long time to slowly put myself back together. But with a few simple words from you, you had my heart back in your hands. Where you played with it. Just when I was almost whole again, you shattered me all over again.
And I’m done. I’m don’t with you and the pain you have caused me. There will always be a part of me that will always belong to you, but I can’t take this anymore. I don’t get the game you are trying to play with me, but I do know I’m done playing.
I had hoped that maybe we would have worked out, but I guess it looks like we won’t. And so, I’m going to try and move on again from you. Try and see if I can ever get you out of my system. But I know that if you ask me to be yours, I would say yes in a heart beat…and that’s what I don’t want.
I want us to be real. I know stuff in the movies never happens in real life because it’s movies and Hollywood, but I wanted us to be real. I wanted us to happen. But it seems like you don’t.
A small part of me hopes that you do. That you still have those feelings for me, but most of me knows that they are probably gone.
So this is it. I am going to try and move on. Try and put myself back together again…but please please don’t shatter me again.